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flowers

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 01:12:54 GMT

back to the gym and crabs

Tue, 09 Jun 2009 00:55:22 GMT

I went back to the gym today. I worked out and burned almost 400 calories while watching the pilot to Six Feet Under. I heard it was a good show I figured what the hell. It is interesting to say the least. I have gained almost 15 pounds in the past year. Maybe that is not a lot but my pants don't fit well and I don't like the way I look. So, my plan is to lose 25 pounds between now and October when I go on vacation with friends in California.

Work is going well. We are doing a lot of things for free and are actively looking for more work. We are updating our website and working on getting real business cards made. I think we are alright until late Fall. I might be hurting a little then. I'm not gonna freak though.

I miss hangin out with my friends at the Green lantern and wish they would find a new place to meet. I really did enjoy it.

I joined a car club this week. It is a local gay club and I think that I will enjoy it. I need to put myself in situations where I can talk to other people. I spend too much time alone. Don't get me wrong I like being alone but I do need friends. The car club should work well for me.

I bought 3 new crabs and 3 crawdads for my tank and the stupid existing crawdad killed the new crawdads and two of the crabs. I took it out of the tank and ripped it's little claws off and smacked it with them. I think it learned it's lesson. No I just took it out and put it in the creek behind the house. Now I only have one crab. I like the crabs much more than the stupid crawdads anyway. Now I will need to get more. I feel sorry for the dead crabs. I wonder what that must feel like to be eaten alive. I think that it would suck.

Later

fish n trees

Wed, 27 May 2009 21:54:50 GMT

wisteria

Fri, 22 May 2009 01:03:31 GMT

make a wish

Wed, 20 May 2009 22:25:42 GMT

sumflowers

Wed, 20 May 2009 02:10:14 GMT

grasshopper

Tue, 19 May 2009 22:25:09 GMT

more flowers

Mon, 18 May 2009 16:23:49 GMT

one bird

Fri, 15 May 2009 23:53:27 GMT

Burfday

Fri, 15 May 2009 13:13:27 GMT

Yesterday I had a very nice Burfday. I can't remember the last time I had so many people wish me well. It was actually a great day. I went to work as usual, got caught in the traffic as usual and had a hectic day as usual. After work I was treated to a very nice, although high calorie, dinner and a little shopping. I even enjoyed a little thunderstorm on the way home. All in all it was a very good day. I don't know why burfdays freak me out so much.
42 isn't bad. I am getting better at liking myself and accepting who I am. That has taken years. I just wish I could get over the whole looking at guys my age and comparing myself to them. Am I fatter than he is? Do I look like a Dad? That sort of thing. I have a hard time looking at myself and just accepting who I am. To be honest, I sort of skipped a couple of steps when I was a kid when it came to my identity and sometimes I get a little confused. Then I obsess over the small things and in the end it comes out as whatever freaks me out at the time.
I wonder how long it will take me until I can accept myself for who I am. Of course that would mean that I actual understand who I am and all of the parts that make me. Funny, other people seem to see the man that I have become without a problem. I thought that this phase went away a long time ago. I have overcome so many obstacles in my life and become very successful as many things. I am actually not a bad guy. Sometimes I even think that I would want to be my friend. Hell, I even look in the mirror and sometimes find myself attractive.
I still get lost going down the most simple roads in my life. Roads that others know like the back of their hands. It bothers me I won't lie. It bothers me a lot. But I have noticed that most of the time I get to the same destination in the end. Maybe I'm a little late and most definitely I get lost and find my own way. But, in the end I always have a very unique way of lookin at things.
I like that about me. Right or wrong, I make my own path. I tend to find the most treasures that way. Things that others pass right by. It always amazes me.

gotta get to work

L8R

Jeff

more birds

Fri, 15 May 2009 01:28:07 GMT

birds

Fri, 15 May 2009 01:26:53 GMT

flower pix

Thu, 14 May 2009 00:09:27 GMT

Happy Easter

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 17:06:02 GMT

Happy Easter everyone

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Too Early

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 12:30:47 GMT

The days are too short and I am too tired

I need a vacation. Maybe soon. Right now I am waiting for a doctors appointment. So I thought I would write a little something down

Boring I know

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Wednesday

Thu, 12 Mar 2009 01:20:58 GMT

Like many of the other days these past two plus months I have been busy. I guess I can explain a little more.

At the end of October of last year I was laid off from my job. I cleaned out my desk and came home. I started unemployment and started cleaning out all of the closets and getting things done that I had been putting off for quite a while. I kept myself busy until around Christmas time. I always get a little down at this time of the year and this year was no exception. The fact that I didn't have a job didn't help.
Now a lot of people from my old work were laid off around the same time as I was. When the economy slows down there really isn't much need for Interior Designers. So, I kept getting emails from my former boss asking me to start a business with her. It seems that a lot of the clients that we used to have wanted her to finish the jobs on her own. She didn't think that she could do it alone do I reluctantly agree to join her. Jan 1, we began our business. I figured I was really not doing anything anyway so what the hell. There is a lot more to the story of why I was really not doing much of anything but we wont get into my self destructive ways.
I now work more hours than before and I am living primarily on my savings and income tax return waiting for the money to start rolling in. Just a little bit of advice, if you start your own business the money doesn't start rolling in for a quite a while. When it does then there is always something to pay for or someone to pay. Today we cashed our first check. It doesn't quite pay for all of the up front charges that we have made but it is a start.
I spend most of my waking hours trying to get my work finished without the tools that I need. So, I spend less and less time doing things like writing in live journal and more and more time trying to just getting as much done as I can at work and home.
This is a short version of the past few months of my life. It doesn't sound too bad when I read it here but believe me there is a lot more shit that I have been through than I cannot or am not willing to write. Things are actually going ok. There are a lot of people who are doing well with this depression and I am lucky to have all of the options and opportunities that I have in my life. I am by no means in poor shape. Things are just a little lumpy right now. I am sure that in time things will smooth out to something that I can deal with.
So today, I am a business man. Who would have thought! I am grateful for the opportunity and if things don't quite work out as planned I have the satisfaction of knowing that no matter how fucked up I can be at times that at least I tried. For me this is an accomplishment.

that's the update

Very Very Long Time

Wed, 11 Mar 2009 00:20:01 GMT

It has been a very very long time since I have posted anything on here. Life just sort of got away from me for a long time. I can't say that I really have much of a hold of it right now but I am doing much better. Funny how things just slip through your fingers.

I just thought I would write something in hopes that I would want to make this a habit again.

Jeff

Long Day

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 01:19:53 GMT

It has one long ass hectic day and I for one am going to bed.

I took this pix of Stiny Pete last night. In case some of you were wondering how that little darling kitten that I found in the tree is doing these days.

Sometime I think that he is just a tad bit spoiled. He is in his bed at the right of my computer on my desk under his lamp. He has to me near his daddy.

New Jersey Day

Tue, 09 Oct 2007 00:34:52 GMT

My task for today was to drive to New Jersey to visit a retirement community that I am helping to renovate. It was a duel task today of checking out the spaces (which were massive) and taking part in a kissy kissy meet and greet thingy. The meet and greet was really just a big sales pitch so I really drove move 7 hours back and forth to take pictures and walk all over this place. Yeah haw. Good 4 me.

There was one interesting part. There was a band playing music from the 40's (most of which I knew) then for whatever reason the band played the theme from The Love Boat. I guess I was really tired or just bored but I kept trying to remember if this was a remake from the 40's. It made absolutely no sense to me at all.

I did take a few photographs for myself while I was out and about. I pix of a bridge (from the car) and when I was lost I found a street sigh that just had to take a pix of .

later

Journal Changes

Mon, 08 Oct 2007 00:42:19 GMT

I have decided to take more of an active interest in my Live Journal. Over the past year I find that I don't read a lot of what people on my friends list write and I am sure that I write things that someone on my friends list doesn't read. I am going to make changes to my friends list soon. I plan to make my Journal into a friends only Journal. I really want to be able to explore and learn more about myself through my journal and I feel that this change will allow me to do that.

I hope that I don't upset anyone if I de-friend you but I really feel the need to make a few changes in my life and therefore on my friends list.

Sunday Bloody Pumpkin Sunday

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 00:49:22 GMT

A few pictures from the Sunday Bloody Pumpkin Sunday

Movie Time

Mon, 01 Oct 2007 00:21:17 GMT

On Friday I decided that I needed a break from work. I have had a lot going on lately and I figured I needed a little time for myself. I escaped to one of my favorite work time departure, the movies. It has been a while since I went to the movies by myself in the middle of the day. It is one of those little luxuries that I honestly enjoy.
The movie of choice for this departure was "Across the Universe".

If you have not seen it and want to see it without any influence then I wouldn't read any further.

For whatever reason I decided that I would write a review for this movie from my point of view. However after reading this review I don't think that I can really ad much movie to it or have done a better job (especially since writing reviews are sort of his thing). I will say that I thoroughly enjoyed myself. It has been along time since I went to go see a movie that actually touched me. It drew me in from the beginning and held me there through it's entirety. This is one of those movies that I would love to go see again will definitely own when it comes out on DVD. If you like the Beatles and the look and feel of the 60's then do yourself a favor and go and see this movie. Do yourself a favbor and don't go in thinking that it just a movie set to the music of the Beatles because it's much more than that. It's a story of movement, peace, war, growth, art, music, freedom, friendship, change and of course love.

yes or no

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 01:38:27 GMT

is this ad just a little

vintage ad

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 01:14:34 GMT

I like to change the background on my computer at work a lot. I mostly like vintage ads. I found this one today. I love it.

Sen. Mary Craig

Wed, 05 Sep 2007 10:55:29 GMT

This whole Sen. Larry Craig thing has me confused. I really don't care if he is gay or not to be honest. But gay or straight make up your fuckin mind. Shit, this guy admits to playin around the restroom then takes it back then after much drama and resigns and not wants to take that back. Come on Mary, make up your fuckin mind. Shit, No wonder he is in politics. Fuck, step aside and let someone else take over already.

On a more personal note, I was in that airport once and I think he hit on me. Or he could have been pickin up a piece of toilet paper. Either way I felt special for the rest of the day.

Just sayin